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		<title>Brett: Text replacement - &quot;Leva&quot; to &quot;Lyova&quot;</title>
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		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text replacement - &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Leva&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Leva&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;&lt;a href=&quot;/pages/Lyova&quot; class=&quot;mw-redirect&quot; title=&quot;Lyova&quot;&gt;Lyova&lt;/a&gt;&amp;quot;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Anyway, enough of that... I congratulate you on your little daughter. You cannot imagine how I was worried about you, my dear chap, and how I crossed myself with all my heart when the telegram about your safe delivery reached us. With regard to what you write to [[Papasha]], it seems to me personally that until the law-suit &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; is settled it would be to his advantage to live at your place or at [[Zinochka]]&amp;#039;s, but I don&amp;#039;t dare to give him any advice. For if I advise him to go and stay with you, he might think that I want rid of him, and if I start persuading him to stay in [[Petersburg]], then it will seem as if I absolutely wished to live at his expense. In early June he will arrive at your place together with [[Tolya]] and [[Modya]]; as for me, I really don&amp;#039;t know yet where I will be then. I thank you very much, my friend, for inviting me to stay with you. [[Kolya]] is striving to be allowed to stay and work in [[Petersburg]]. You will probably already have been informed about Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky&amp;#039;s &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; appointment as director of the Mint. Now everything depends on him, and it is to be hoped that things will work out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Anyway, enough of that... I congratulate you on your little daughter. You cannot imagine how I was worried about you, my dear chap, and how I crossed myself with all my heart when the telegram about your safe delivery reached us. With regard to what you write to [[Papasha]], it seems to me personally that until the law-suit &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; is settled it would be to his advantage to live at your place or at [[Zinochka]]&amp;#039;s, but I don&amp;#039;t dare to give him any advice. For if I advise him to go and stay with you, he might think that I want rid of him, and if I start persuading him to stay in [[Petersburg]], then it will seem as if I absolutely wished to live at his expense. In early June he will arrive at your place together with [[Tolya]] and [[Modya]]; as for me, I really don&amp;#039;t know yet where I will be then. I thank you very much, my friend, for inviting me to stay with you. [[Kolya]] is striving to be allowed to stay and work in [[Petersburg]]. You will probably already have been informed about Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky&amp;#039;s &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; appointment as director of the Mint. Now everything depends on him, and it is to be hoped that things will work out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I have been left very exhausted by Lent with all its concerts. I was continually asked to provide the accompaniment in various concerts. I appeared twice on the stage of the Bolshoi and Mariinsky theatres, and on one occasion I was at a musical soirée hosted by [[Grand Duchess Yelena Pavlovna]]. Moreover, I was favoured with the honour of attracting her attention and being able to talk to her. Two days later, I received an envelope from her with 20 rubles enclosed (not a very grand ducal sum). Now I am sitting at home most of the time and continuing to study assiduously. By the way, I beg you and [[&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/del&gt;]] to forgive me for writing to you so rarely. Don&amp;#039;t imagine that this is because I never think about you; rather, it is simply because I don&amp;#039;t have enough time, and in general I am not much inclined to write letters.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I have been left very exhausted by Lent with all its concerts. I was continually asked to provide the accompaniment in various concerts. I appeared twice on the stage of the Bolshoi and Mariinsky theatres, and on one occasion I was at a musical soirée hosted by [[Grand Duchess Yelena Pavlovna]]. Moreover, I was favoured with the honour of attracting her attention and being able to talk to her. Two days later, I received an envelope from her with 20 rubles enclosed (not a very grand ducal sum). Now I am sitting at home most of the time and continuing to study assiduously. By the way, I beg you and [[&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Lyova&lt;/ins&gt;]] to forgive me for writing to you so rarely. Don&amp;#039;t imagine that this is because I never think about you; rather, it is simply because I don&amp;#039;t have enough time, and in general I am not much inclined to write letters.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I kiss you very, very warmly, as well as dear [[&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Leva&lt;/del&gt;]], [[Tanya]] and [[Vera Rimskaya-Korsakova|Vera]], whose acquaintance I am awfully keen on making.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I kiss you very, very warmly, as well as dear [[&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Lyova&lt;/ins&gt;]], [[Tanya]] and [[Vera Rimskaya-Korsakova|Vera]], whose acquaintance I am awfully keen on making.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|P. Tchaikovsky}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|P. Tchaikovsky}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
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		<title>Tony: Text correction - &quot;s See&quot; to &quot;see&quot; / Inserted full stop for ease of reading</title>
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		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text correction - &amp;quot;s See&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;see&amp;quot; / Inserted full stop for ease of reading&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|15 April 1863}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|15 April 1863}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Sasha]], dear friend! From your letter to [[Papasha]] which reached us today I can see that you are very concerned about my situation and are sceptical about the decisive step which I have taken on my life&amp;#039;s path. It is precisely for this reason that I want to explain to you in detail what I intend to do and what my hopes are. You would probably not deny that I have aptitudes for music, and also that this is the only thing which I am good for. This being so, it is understandable why I must sacrifice everything so as to develop and train what has been given to me by God in rudimentary form. With this purpose in mind I began to study music theory in earnest. As long as that didn&amp;#039;t prevent me from also attending to my civil service work somehow or other, I could remain at the Ministry [of Justice], but since my studies are becoming ever more serious and difficult, I must of course choose between the two. To serve conscientiously whilst pursuing my music studies is impossible; to receive a salary all my life in return for doing nothing is not on either (and besides, it wouldn&amp;#039;t be permitted). Consequently, there remains only one thing: I must abandon state service (especially since I can always return to it later on). In short, after reflecting on it a long time, I have decided to remain nominally attached to the Ministry whilst resigning from my official post and losing my salary &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Don&amp;#039;t conclude from this that I am intending to fall into debt or, instead of a salary, to wheedle money out of [[Papasha]], whose situation is far from brilliant now &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Of course, I have lost out somewhat in my material circumstances, but firstly, I am hoping to obtain, in the next season, a post at the Conservatory (as a professor&amp;#039;s assistant); secondly, I have already set myself up with some lessons for next year too; thirdly (and most importantly), since I have completely renounced society pleasures, elegant clothes and suchlike, I have managed to cut down my expenses to very small proportions. After all this you will probably be asking what will finally become of me after I have completed my studies. I am certain of only one thing: that I will turn out to be a good musician, and that I will always be able to earn my daily bread. All the professors at the Conservatory are satisfied with me and say that, if I am diligent, I can go very far. I have written all the above not by way of bragging (it is not in my nature to do so, I think), but rather because I am talking to you frankly and without any false modesty. After completing my course at the Conservatory my dream is to come and stay with you for a whole year so as to write something big amidst the peace and quiet there, and after that I shall set off and endure the hardships of the world.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;[[Sasha]], dear friend! From your letter to [[Papasha]] which reached us today I can see that you are very concerned about my situation and are sceptical about the decisive step which I have taken on my life&amp;#039;s path. It is precisely for this reason that I want to explain to you in detail what I intend to do and what my hopes are. You would probably not deny that I have aptitudes for music, and also that this is the only thing which I am good for. This being so, it is understandable why I must sacrifice everything so as to develop and train what has been given to me by God in rudimentary form. With this purpose in mind I began to study music theory in earnest. As long as that didn&amp;#039;t prevent me from also attending to my civil service work somehow or other, I could remain at the Ministry [of Justice], but since my studies are becoming ever more serious and difficult, I must of course choose between the two. To serve conscientiously whilst pursuing my music studies is impossible; to receive a salary all my life in return for doing nothing is not on either (and besides, it wouldn&amp;#039;t be permitted). Consequently, there remains only one thing: I must abandon state service (especially since I can always return to it later on). In short, after reflecting on it a long time, I have decided to remain nominally attached to the Ministry whilst resigning from my official post and losing my salary &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Don&amp;#039;t conclude from this that I am intending to fall into debt or, instead of a salary, to wheedle money out of [[Papasha]], whose situation is far from brilliant now &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Of course, I have lost out somewhat in my material circumstances, but firstly, I am hoping to obtain, in the next season, a post at the Conservatory (as a professor&amp;#039;s assistant); secondly, I have already set myself up with some lessons for next year too; thirdly (and most importantly), since I have completely renounced society pleasures, elegant clothes and suchlike, I have managed to cut down my expenses to very small proportions. After all this you will probably be asking what will finally become of me after I have completed my studies. I am certain of only one thing: that I will turn out to be a good musician, and that I will always be able to earn my daily bread. All the professors at the Conservatory are satisfied with me and say that, if I am diligent, I can go very far. I have written all the above not by way of bragging (it is not in my nature to do so, I think), but rather because I am talking to you frankly and without any false modesty. After completing my course at the Conservatory&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;, &lt;/ins&gt;my dream is to come and stay with you for a whole year so as to write something big amidst the peace and quiet there, and after that I shall set off and endure the hardships of the world.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Anyway, enough of that... I congratulate you on your little daughter. You cannot imagine how I was worried about you, my dear chap, and how I crossed myself with all my heart when the telegram about your safe delivery reached us. With regard to what you write to [[Papasha]], it seems to me personally that until the law-suit &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; is settled it would be to his advantage to live at your place or at [[Zinochka]]&amp;#039;s, but I don&amp;#039;t dare to give him any advice. For if I advise him to go and stay with you, he might think that I want rid of him, and if I start persuading him to stay in [[Petersburg]], then it will seem as if I absolutely wished to live at his expense. In early June he will arrive at your place together with [[Tolya]] and [[Modya]]; as for me, I really don&amp;#039;t know yet where I will be then. I thank you very much, my friend, for inviting me to stay with you. [[Kolya]] is striving to be allowed to stay and work in [[Petersburg]]. You will probably already have been informed about Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky&amp;#039;s &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; appointment as director of the Mint. Now everything depends on him, and it is to be hoped that things will work out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Anyway, enough of that... I congratulate you on your little daughter. You cannot imagine how I was worried about you, my dear chap, and how I crossed myself with all my heart when the telegram about your safe delivery reached us. With regard to what you write to [[Papasha]], it seems to me personally that until the law-suit &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; is settled it would be to his advantage to live at your place or at [[Zinochka]]&amp;#039;s, but I don&amp;#039;t dare to give him any advice. For if I advise him to go and stay with you, he might think that I want rid of him, and if I start persuading him to stay in [[Petersburg]], then it will seem as if I absolutely wished to live at his expense. In early June he will arrive at your place together with [[Tolya]] and [[Modya]]; as for me, I really don&amp;#039;t know yet where I will be then. I thank you very much, my friend, for inviting me to stay with you. [[Kolya]] is striving to be allowed to stay and work in [[Petersburg]]. You will probably already have been informed about Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky&amp;#039;s &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; appointment as director of the Mint. Now everything depends on him, and it is to be hoped that things will work out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Notes and References==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Notes and References==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;references&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;references&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;&amp;gt;On 11/23 April 1863, Tchaikovsky tendered his letter of resignation to the Ministry of Justice, &amp;amp;quot;owing to domestic circumstances&amp;amp;quot;, but applied to remain attached to the Ministry in a sort of unsalaried reserve position. His resignation was accepted on 1/13 May&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;&amp;gt;On 11/23 April 1863, Tchaikovsky tendered his letter of resignation to the Ministry of Justice, &amp;amp;quot;owing to domestic circumstances&amp;amp;quot;, but applied to remain attached to the Ministry in a sort of unsalaried reserve position. His resignation was accepted on 1/13 May&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;.&lt;/ins&gt;&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;&amp;gt;That spring, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had retired from the directorship of the Technological Institute. Out of the pension he was now assigned he had to pay off several debts, in addition to maintaining his family — that is, mainly the twins [[Anatoly]] and [[Modest]], who were still at school, but for a while the future composer as well who was receiving free board and lodging at his father&amp;#039;s house.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;&amp;gt;That spring, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had retired from the directorship of the Technological Institute. Out of the pension he was now assigned he had to pay off several debts, in addition to maintaining his family — that is, mainly the twins [[Anatoly]] and [[Modest]], who were still at school, but for a while the future composer as well who was receiving free board and lodging at his father&amp;#039;s house.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;&amp;gt;In 1858, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had entrusted all his savings to a certain Mrs Yachmeneva asking her to invest his money as she saw fit. Mrs Yachmeneva&amp;#039;s investment did not work out, however, and [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] lost almost all of his money. A certain Mrs Beklesheva had stood surety for the former, and there ensued a law-suit between the two ladies on whose outcome depended whether or not [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] could recover some of his money — see {{bib|1997/94|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1997), p. 100-101, 143.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;&amp;gt;In 1858, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had entrusted all his savings to a certain Mrs Yachmeneva asking her to invest his money as she saw fit. Mrs Yachmeneva&amp;#039;s investment did not work out, however, and [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] lost almost all of his money. A certain Mrs Beklesheva had stood surety for the former, and there ensued a law-suit between the two ladies on whose outcome depended whether or not [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] could recover some of his money — see {{bib|1997/94|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1997), p. 100-101, 143.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;&amp;gt;Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky (1819-1868) was the husband of Tchaikovsky&amp;#039;s cousin and childhood playmate Lidiya Vladimirovna Olkhovskaya (née Tchaikovskaya; 1836-1892). Olkhovsky became director of the [[Saint Petersburg]] Mint, but he was also a playwright (pseudonym &amp;quot;Onyx&amp;quot;) whose plays were very popular in their time — &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;s See &lt;/del&gt;{{bib|1997/94|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1997), p. 131, note 1.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;&amp;gt;Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky (1819-1868) was the husband of Tchaikovsky&amp;#039;s cousin and childhood playmate Lidiya Vladimirovna Olkhovskaya (née Tchaikovskaya; 1836-1892). Olkhovsky became director of the [[Saint Petersburg]] Mint, but he was also a playwright (pseudonym &amp;quot;Onyx&amp;quot;) whose plays were very popular in their time —  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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|Date=15/27 April 1863 &lt;br /&gt;
|To=[[Aleksandra Davydova]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Place=[[Saint Petersburg]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian &lt;br /&gt;
|Autograph=[[Saint Petersburg]] (Russia): {{RUS-SPsc}} (ф. 834, ед. хр. 16, л. 13–15) &lt;br /&gt;
|Publication={{bib|1900/35|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1900), p. 156–157 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1940/210|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к родным ; том 1}} (1940), p. 62–63 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 14–15 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1959/50|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том V}} (1959), p. 77–78 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81|Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 13–14 (English translation)&lt;br /&gt;
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==Text and Translation==&lt;br /&gt;
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|Language=Russian&lt;br /&gt;
|Translator=Luis Sundkvist&lt;br /&gt;
|Original text={{right|15 апреля 1863 г[ода]}}&lt;br /&gt;
Милый друг Саша! Из полученного от тебя сегодня письма к Папаше я вижу, что ты принимаешь живое участие в моём положении и с недоверием смотришь на решительный шаг, сделанный мною на пути жизни. Поэтому-то я и хочу подробно объяснить тебе, что я намерен делать и на что я надеюсь. Ты, вероятно, не будешь отрицать во мне способностей к музыке, а также и того, что это единственное, к чему я способен; если так, то понятно, что я должен пожертвовать всем для того, чтобы развить и образовать то, что мне дано Богом в зародыше. С этою целью я начал серьёзно заниматься теориею музыки; пока это мне не мешало кое-как заниматься и службою, я оставался в Министерстве, но так как занятия мои делаются всё серьёзнее и труднее, то я, конечно, должен выбрать что-нибудь одно. Добросовестно служить при моих занятиях музыкою невозможно; получать даром жалованье целую жизнь нельзя, да и не позволят, — следовательно, остаётся одно: оставить службу (тем более, что я к ней всегда могу возвратиться). Одним словом, после долгих размышлений я решился причислиться к М[инистерст]ву, оставив штатное место и лишившись жалованья. Не заключи из этого, что я намерен делать долги или вместо жалованья выпрашивать деньги у Папаши, к[ото]рого положение теперь далеко не блистательно. Конечно, я немного выиграл в материальном положении, но, во-1), я надеюсь в будущем сезоне получить место в Консерватории (помощника профессора); во-2), я уже достал себе на будущий же год несколько уроков; в-3), — и это самое главное, — так как я совершенно отказался от светских удовольствий, от изящного туалета и т. п., расходы мои сократились до весьма малых размеров. После всего этого ты, вероятно, спросишь: что из меня выйдет окончательно, когда я кончу учиться? В одном только я уверен, — что из меня выйдет хороший музыкант и что я всегда буду иметь насущный хлеб. Все профессора Консерватории мною довольны и говорят, что при усердии из меня может выйти многое. Всё вышесказанное я пишу не из хвастовства (кажется, не в моём характере), а говорю с тобой откровенно и без всякой ложной скромности. Когда кончу курс Консерватории, мечтаю на целый год приехать к тебе, чтоб среди тишины и покоя написать что-нибудь большое, — и потом пойду мытарствовать по свету.&lt;br /&gt;
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Ну, довольно об этом... Поздравляю тебя с дочкой; ты не поверишь, душа моя, как я беспокоился о тебе и как от души перекрестился, когда пришла депеша о благополучном разрешении. Насчёт того, что ты пишешь Папаше, мне самому кажется, что ему было бы выгоднее до решения дела прожить у тебя и у Зиночки, но советовать ему ничего не решаюсь; если посоветую ему остаться у тебя, он может подумать, что я хочу от него отделаться, а если стану уговаривать жить в Петербурге, то будет казаться, как будто я желаю непременно жить на его счёт. В начале июня он с Т[олей] и М[одей] будет у тебя, я же ещё об том, где буду, ничего не знаю. Очень благодарю тебя, мой друг, за приглашение гостить у тебя. Коля хлопочет остаться служить в Петербурге. Тебе уже, вероятно, писали о назначении Н[иколая] И[вановича] Ольховского начальником Монетного двора; теперь всё зависит от него — и нужно надеяться, что дело устроится. &lt;br /&gt;
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Великий пост с своими концертами очень меня утомил; меня беспрестанно просили аккомпанировать в различных концертах; два разя я появлялся на сцене Большого и Мариинского театров, раз был на музыкальном вечере у в[еликой] к[нягини] Елены Павловны, причём удостоился чести обратить на себя её внимание и с нею разговаривать, а через два дни получил от неё конверт с вложением 20 р[ублей] (не слишком-то великокняжески). Теперь сижу большею частью дома и продолжаю усердно заниматься. Кстати, прошу у тебя и у Лёвы извинения, что редко Вам пишу; не приписывай это тому, что я никогда об Вас не думаю, а просто недостатку времени и отсутствию вообще большой наклонности к писанию писем. &lt;br /&gt;
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Целую тебя крепко, крепко, также милого Лёву, Таню и Веру, с к[ото]рыми бы ужасно хотелось познакомиться.&lt;br /&gt;
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[[Sasha]], dear friend! From your letter to [[Papasha]] which reached us today I can see that you are very concerned about my situation and are sceptical about the decisive step which I have taken on my life&amp;#039;s path. It is precisely for this reason that I want to explain to you in detail what I intend to do and what my hopes are. You would probably not deny that I have aptitudes for music, and also that this is the only thing which I am good for. This being so, it is understandable why I must sacrifice everything so as to develop and train what has been given to me by God in rudimentary form. With this purpose in mind I began to study music theory in earnest. As long as that didn&amp;#039;t prevent me from also attending to my civil service work somehow or other, I could remain at the Ministry [of Justice], but since my studies are becoming ever more serious and difficult, I must of course choose between the two. To serve conscientiously whilst pursuing my music studies is impossible; to receive a salary all my life in return for doing nothing is not on either (and besides, it wouldn&amp;#039;t be permitted). Consequently, there remains only one thing: I must abandon state service (especially since I can always return to it later on). In short, after reflecting on it a long time, I have decided to remain nominally attached to the Ministry whilst resigning from my official post and losing my salary &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Don&amp;#039;t conclude from this that I am intending to fall into debt or, instead of a salary, to wheedle money out of [[Papasha]], whose situation is far from brilliant now &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;/&amp;gt;. Of course, I have lost out somewhat in my material circumstances, but firstly, I am hoping to obtain, in the next season, a post at the Conservatory (as a professor&amp;#039;s assistant); secondly, I have already set myself up with some lessons for next year too; thirdly (and most importantly), since I have completely renounced society pleasures, elegant clothes and suchlike, I have managed to cut down my expenses to very small proportions. After all this you will probably be asking what will finally become of me after I have completed my studies. I am certain of only one thing: that I will turn out to be a good musician, and that I will always be able to earn my daily bread. All the professors at the Conservatory are satisfied with me and say that, if I am diligent, I can go very far. I have written all the above not by way of bragging (it is not in my nature to do so, I think), but rather because I am talking to you frankly and without any false modesty. After completing my course at the Conservatory my dream is to come and stay with you for a whole year so as to write something big amidst the peace and quiet there, and after that I shall set off and endure the hardships of the world. &lt;br /&gt;
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Anyway, enough of that... I congratulate you on your little daughter. You cannot imagine how I was worried about you, my dear chap, and how I crossed myself with all my heart when the telegram about your safe delivery reached us. With regard to what you write to [[Papasha]], it seems to me personally that until the law-suit &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; is settled it would be to his advantage to live at your place or at [[Zinochka]]&amp;#039;s, but I don&amp;#039;t dare to give him any advice. For if I advise him to go and stay with you, he might think that I want rid of him, and if I start persuading him to stay in [[Petersburg]], then it will seem as if I absolutely wished to live at his expense. In early June he will arrive at your place together with [[Tolya]] and [[Modya]]; as for me, I really don&amp;#039;t know yet where I will be then. I thank you very much, my friend, for inviting me to stay with you. [[Kolya]] is striving to be allowed to stay and work in [[Petersburg]]. You will probably already have been informed about Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky&amp;#039;s &amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;/&amp;gt; appointment as director of the Mint. Now everything depends on him, and it is to be hoped that things will work out. &lt;br /&gt;
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I have been left very exhausted by Lent with all its concerts. I was continually asked to provide the accompaniment in various concerts. I appeared twice on the stage of the Bolshoi and Mariinsky theatres, and on one occasion I was at a musical soirée hosted by [[Grand Duchess Yelena Pavlovna]]. Moreover, I was favoured with the honour of attracting her attention and being able to talk to her. Two days later, I received an envelope from her with 20 rubles enclosed (not a very grand ducal sum). Now I am sitting at home most of the time and continuing to study assiduously. By the way, I beg you and [[Leva]] to forgive me for writing to you so rarely. Don&amp;#039;t imagine that this is because I never think about you; rather, it is simply because I don&amp;#039;t have enough time, and in general I am not much inclined to write letters.&lt;br /&gt;
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I kiss you very, very warmly, as well as dear [[Leva]], [[Tanya]] and [[Vera Rimskaya-Korsakova|Vera]], whose acquaintance I am awfully keen on making. &lt;br /&gt;
{{right|P. Tchaikovsky}}&lt;br /&gt;
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==Notes and References==&lt;br /&gt;
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&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note1&amp;quot;&amp;gt;On 11/23 April 1863, Tchaikovsky tendered his letter of resignation to the Ministry of Justice, &amp;amp;quot;owing to domestic circumstances&amp;amp;quot;, but applied to remain attached to the Ministry in a sort of unsalaried reserve position. His resignation was accepted on 1/13 May&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;br /&gt;
&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note2&amp;quot;&amp;gt;That spring, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had retired from the directorship of the Technological Institute. Out of the pension he was now assigned he had to pay off several debts, in addition to maintaining his family — that is, mainly the twins [[Anatoly]] and [[Modest]], who were still at school, but for a while the future composer as well who was receiving free board and lodging at his father&amp;#039;s house.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;br /&gt;
&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note3&amp;quot;&amp;gt;In 1858, [[Ilya Tchaikovsky]] had entrusted all his savings to a certain Mrs Yachmeneva asking her to invest his money as she saw fit. Mrs Yachmeneva&amp;#039;s investment did not work out, however, and [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] lost almost all of his money. A certain Mrs Beklesheva had stood surety for the former, and there ensued a law-suit between the two ladies on whose outcome depended whether or not [[Ilya Tchaikovsky|Ilya]] could recover some of his money — see {{bib|1997/94|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1997), p. 100-101, 143.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;br /&gt;
&amp;lt;ref name=&amp;quot;note4&amp;quot;&amp;gt;Nikolay Ivanovich Olkhovsky (1819-1868) was the husband of Tchaikovsky&amp;#039;s cousin and childhood playmate Lidiya Vladimirovna Olkhovskaya (née Tchaikovskaya; 1836-1892). Olkhovsky became director of the [[Saint Petersburg]] Mint, but he was also a playwright (pseudonym &amp;quot;Onyx&amp;quot;) whose plays were very popular in their time — s See {{bib|1997/94|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1997), p. 131, note 1.&amp;lt;/ref&amp;gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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