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		<title>Tony: &quot;giving&quot; to &quot;given&quot; / &quot;here&quot; to &quot;her&quot; for accuracy of meaning</title>
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		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;&amp;quot;giving&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;given&amp;quot; / &amp;quot;here&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;her&amp;quot; for accuracy of meaning&lt;/p&gt;
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				&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l35&quot;&gt;Line 35:&lt;/td&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Yesterday I had dinner at [[Konradi]]&amp;#039;s. [[Alina Bryullova|Alina]] was much more cheerful; [[Herman Karlovich]] was very nice to me, like never before. She now speaks highly of him, and tells how he&amp;#039;s become affectionate, kind and attentive to her. He agrees with me that it would be exhausting for you to go to the Caucasus, and suggests that you go straight to [[Grankino]]. I think this is best, but do come to [[Kamenka]] for at least a week, otherwise I&amp;#039;ll miss you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Yesterday I had dinner at [[Konradi]]&amp;#039;s. [[Alina Bryullova|Alina]] was much more cheerful; [[Herman Karlovich]] was very nice to me, like never before. She now speaks highly of him, and tells how he&amp;#039;s become affectionate, kind and attentive to her. He agrees with me that it would be exhausting for you to go to the Caucasus, and suggests that you go straight to [[Grankino]]. I think this is best, but do come to [[Kamenka]] for at least a week, otherwise I&amp;#039;ll miss you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m making great sacrifices for the sake of the opera. It&amp;#039;s reached the point where, on [[Nápravník]]&amp;#039;s advice, I&amp;#039;m {{und2|making visits}}!!! At his insistence, on Friday I have to visit the [[Grand Duke Konstantin Nikolayevich]]. On Tuesday there&amp;#039;s to be a concert here organised by Isakov, consisting exclusively of my works, in which [[Panayeva]] and the orchestra of the Russian Opera are taking part. Yesterday I was invited to the Quartet Society, where [[Auer]] and [[Karl Davydov|Davydov]] played my [[String Quartet No. 2|2nd Quartet]], and I was &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;giving &lt;/del&gt;a standing ovation and presented with a wreath. This is all very flattering — but, God, how tired I am, how horrible I find everything here, and how I imagine leaving [[Petersburg]] as some sort of unattainable happiness! It&amp;#039;s madness how little I appreciated the immeasurable bliss of being free abroad! From morning here until the depths of the night, I &amp;#039;&amp;#039;must&amp;#039;&amp;#039; go somewhere and see &amp;#039;&amp;#039;someone&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. This is tyranny of the most sickening nature. [[Vera Butakova]] is a fine one! No matter how much I begged her to spare me from the evening with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Konstantin Konstantinovich]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, she wouldn&amp;#039;t budge. And today I have to be at &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;here &lt;/del&gt;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;exposition&amp;#039;&amp;#039; before the Grand Duke. Let us say he&amp;#039;s most agreeable — but I can&amp;#039;t bear any acquaintances. I hope to write you more pithily this week.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m making great sacrifices for the sake of the opera. It&amp;#039;s reached the point where, on [[Nápravník]]&amp;#039;s advice, I&amp;#039;m {{und2|making visits}}!!! At his insistence, on Friday I have to visit the [[Grand Duke Konstantin Nikolayevich]]. On Tuesday there&amp;#039;s to be a concert here organised by Isakov, consisting exclusively of my works, in which [[Panayeva]] and the orchestra of the Russian Opera are taking part. Yesterday I was invited to the Quartet Society, where [[Auer]] and [[Karl Davydov|Davydov]] played my [[String Quartet No. 2|2nd Quartet]], and I was &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;given &lt;/ins&gt;a standing ovation and presented with a wreath. This is all very flattering — but, God, how tired I am, how horrible I find everything here, and how I imagine leaving [[Petersburg]] as some sort of unattainable happiness! It&amp;#039;s madness how little I appreciated the immeasurable bliss of being free abroad! From morning here until the depths of the night, I &amp;#039;&amp;#039;must&amp;#039;&amp;#039; go somewhere and see &amp;#039;&amp;#039;someone&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. This is tyranny of the most sickening nature. [[Vera Butakova]] is a fine one! No matter how much I begged her to spare me from the evening with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Konstantin Konstantinovich]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, she wouldn&amp;#039;t budge. And today I have to be at &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;her &lt;/ins&gt;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;exposition&amp;#039;&amp;#039; before the Grand Duke. Let us say he&amp;#039;s most agreeable — but I can&amp;#039;t bear any acquaintances. I hope to write you more pithily this week.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Kisses.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Kisses.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Tony</name></author>
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		<id>https://en.tchaikovsky-research.net/index.php?title=Letter_1454&amp;diff=67762&amp;oldid=prev</id>
		<title>Brett: Text replacement - &quot;very sympathetic&quot; to &quot;most agreeable&quot;</title>
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		<updated>2024-07-18T09:21:10Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Text replacement - &amp;quot;very sympathetic&amp;quot; to &amp;quot;most agreeable&amp;quot;&lt;/p&gt;
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				&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; style=&quot;background-color: #fff; color: #202122; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;Revision as of 11:21, 18 July 2024&lt;/td&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Yesterday I had dinner at [[Konradi]]&amp;#039;s. [[Alina Bryullova|Alina]] was much more cheerful; [[Herman Karlovich]] was very nice to me, like never before. She now speaks highly of him, and tells how he&amp;#039;s become affectionate, kind and attentive to her. He agrees with me that it would be exhausting for you to go to the Caucasus, and suggests that you go straight to [[Grankino]]. I think this is best, but do come to [[Kamenka]] for at least a week, otherwise I&amp;#039;ll miss you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Yesterday I had dinner at [[Konradi]]&amp;#039;s. [[Alina Bryullova|Alina]] was much more cheerful; [[Herman Karlovich]] was very nice to me, like never before. She now speaks highly of him, and tells how he&amp;#039;s become affectionate, kind and attentive to her. He agrees with me that it would be exhausting for you to go to the Caucasus, and suggests that you go straight to [[Grankino]]. I think this is best, but do come to [[Kamenka]] for at least a week, otherwise I&amp;#039;ll miss you.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m making great sacrifices for the sake of the opera. It&amp;#039;s reached the point where, on [[Nápravník]]&amp;#039;s advice, I&amp;#039;m {{und2|making visits}}!!! At his insistence, on Friday I have to visit the [[Grand Duke Konstantin Nikolayevich]]. On Tuesday there&amp;#039;s to be a concert here organised by Isakov, consisting exclusively of my works, in which [[Panayeva]] and the orchestra of the Russian Opera are taking part. Yesterday I was invited to the Quartet Society, where [[Auer]] and [[Karl Davydov|Davydov]] played my [[String Quartet No. 2|2nd Quartet]], and I was giving a standing ovation and presented with a wreath. This is all very flattering — but, God, how tired I am, how horrible I find everything here, and how I imagine leaving [[Petersburg]] as some sort of unattainable happiness! It&amp;#039;s madness how little I appreciated the immeasurable bliss of being free abroad! From morning here until the depths of the night, I &amp;#039;&amp;#039;must&amp;#039;&amp;#039; go somewhere and see &amp;#039;&amp;#039;someone&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. This is tyranny of the most sickening nature. [[Vera Butakova]] is a fine one! No matter how much I begged her to spare me from the evening with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Konstantin Konstantinovich]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, she wouldn&amp;#039;t budge. And today I have to be at here &amp;#039;&amp;#039;exposition&amp;#039;&amp;#039; before the Grand Duke. Let us say he&amp;#039;s &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;very sympathetic &lt;/del&gt;— but I can&amp;#039;t bear any acquaintances. I hope to write you more pithily this week.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I&amp;#039;m making great sacrifices for the sake of the opera. It&amp;#039;s reached the point where, on [[Nápravník]]&amp;#039;s advice, I&amp;#039;m {{und2|making visits}}!!! At his insistence, on Friday I have to visit the [[Grand Duke Konstantin Nikolayevich]]. On Tuesday there&amp;#039;s to be a concert here organised by Isakov, consisting exclusively of my works, in which [[Panayeva]] and the orchestra of the Russian Opera are taking part. Yesterday I was invited to the Quartet Society, where [[Auer]] and [[Karl Davydov|Davydov]] played my [[String Quartet No. 2|2nd Quartet]], and I was giving a standing ovation and presented with a wreath. This is all very flattering — but, God, how tired I am, how horrible I find everything here, and how I imagine leaving [[Petersburg]] as some sort of unattainable happiness! It&amp;#039;s madness how little I appreciated the immeasurable bliss of being free abroad! From morning here until the depths of the night, I &amp;#039;&amp;#039;must&amp;#039;&amp;#039; go somewhere and see &amp;#039;&amp;#039;someone&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. This is tyranny of the most sickening nature. [[Vera Butakova]] is a fine one! No matter how much I begged her to spare me from the evening with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Konstantin Konstantinovich]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, she wouldn&amp;#039;t budge. And today I have to be at here &amp;#039;&amp;#039;exposition&amp;#039;&amp;#039; before the Grand Duke. Let us say he&amp;#039;s &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;most agreeable &lt;/ins&gt;— but I can&amp;#039;t bear any acquaintances. I hope to write you more pithily this week.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
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	<entry>
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		<title>Brett at 12:50, 31 March 2024</title>
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		<updated>2024-03-31T12:50:51Z</updated>

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&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 7:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Publication={{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 247 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1965/80|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том IX}} (1965), p. 86–87&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81|Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 240 (English translation; abridged)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Publication={{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 247 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1965/80|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том IX}} (1965), p. 86–87&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81|Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 240 (English translation; abridged)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Text==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;==Text &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;and Translation&lt;/ins&gt;==&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{Lettertext&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{Lettertext&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Language=Russian&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Language=Russian&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translator=&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translator=&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Brett Langston&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Петербург&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;19 марта}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Петербург&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;19 марта}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Модя! Мне нет никакой возможности вести отсюда правильную переписку. Чем дальше, тем все делается хуже. Меня раздирают, и скоро останутся одни клочки. Чувствую себя отвратительно. В довершение всего, мне приходится теперь поправлять клавираусцуг «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Девы&amp;#039;&amp;#039;», представленный в Дирекцию Юргенсоном в таком безобразном виде, что приходится каждый такт исправлять.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Модя! Мне нет никакой возможности вести отсюда правильную переписку. Чем дальше, тем все делается хуже. Меня раздирают, и скоро останутся одни клочки. Чувствую себя отвратительно. В довершение всего, мне приходится теперь поправлять клавираусцуг «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Девы&amp;#039;&amp;#039;», представленный в Дирекцию Юргенсоном в таком безобразном виде, что приходится каждый такт исправлять.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l18&quot;&gt;Line 18:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 18:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Вчера я обедал у Конради. Алина очень повеселела; Герман Карл[ович] очень мил со мной, как никогда прежде. Она про него отзывается теперь очень хорошо и рассказывает, как он стал к ней ласков, добр и Внимателен. Он согласился со мной, что Вам было бы утомительно ехать на Кавказ, и предлагает тебе прямо направиться в Гранкино. Я думаю, что это лучше всего, но приезжай хоть на недельку в Каменку, а то я соскучусь.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Вчера я обедал у Конради. Алина очень повеселела; Герман Карл[ович] очень мил со мной, как никогда прежде. Она про него отзывается теперь очень хорошо и рассказывает, как он стал к ней ласков, добр и Внимателен. Он согласился со мной, что Вам было бы утомительно ехать на Кавказ, и предлагает тебе прямо направиться в Гранкино. Я думаю, что это лучше всего, но приезжай хоть на недельку в Каменку, а то я соскучусь.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Я приношу ради оперы большие жертвы. Дошло до того, что по совету Направника я {{und2|делаю визиты}}!!! По его же настоянию в пятницу я должен быть у в[еликого] кн[язя] Конст[антина] Никол[аевича]. Здесь во вторник состоится концерт, устроенный Исаковым с участием Панаевой и оркестра русской оперы, составленный исключительно из моих сочинений. Вчера я был приглашён в Квартетное общество, где играли Ауэр и Давыдов мой 2-й кварт[ет], и мне была сделана овация с поднесением венка. Это очень лестно, — но, боже, до чего я устал, до чего мне здесь все противно, и как я воображаю об выезде из Петербурга как об каком-то невозможном счастии! Безумец, как я мало ценил за границей всю неизмеримость блаженства быть свободным! С утра до глубокой ночи я здесь все куда-то &amp;#039;&amp;#039;должен&amp;#039;&amp;#039; идти и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;кого-то&amp;#039;&amp;#039; &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Видеть&lt;/del&gt;. Тирания самого омерзительного свойства. Хороша Вера Бутакова! Как я ни умолял её избавить меня от вечера с &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Конст[антином] Конст[антиновичем]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, — не согласилась. И сегодня я должен быть у ней на &amp;#039;&amp;#039;экспозиции&amp;#039;&amp;#039; перед велик[им] кн[язем]. Положим, он очень симпатичен, — но мне претят всякие знакомства. Надеюсь на этой неделе написать тебе более путно.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Я приношу ради оперы большие жертвы. Дошло до того, что по совету Направника я {{und2|делаю визиты}}!!! По его же настоянию в пятницу я должен быть у в[еликого] кн[язя] Конст[антина] Никол[аевича]. Здесь во вторник состоится концерт, устроенный Исаковым с участием Панаевой и оркестра русской оперы, составленный исключительно из моих сочинений. Вчера я был приглашён в Квартетное общество, где играли Ауэр и Давыдов мой 2-й кварт[ет], и мне была сделана овация с поднесением венка. Это очень лестно, — но, боже, до чего я устал, до чего мне здесь все противно, и как я воображаю об выезде из Петербурга как об каком-то невозможном счастии! Безумец, как я мало ценил за границей всю неизмеримость блаженства быть свободным! С утра до глубокой ночи я здесь все куда-то &amp;#039;&amp;#039;должен&amp;#039;&amp;#039; идти и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;кого-то&amp;#039;&amp;#039; &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;видеть&lt;/ins&gt;. Тирания самого омерзительного свойства. Хороша Вера Бутакова! Как я ни умолял её избавить меня от вечера с &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Конст[антином] Конст[антиновичем]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, — не согласилась. И сегодня я должен быть у ней на &amp;#039;&amp;#039;экспозиции&amp;#039;&amp;#039; перед велик[им] кн[язем]. Положим, он очень симпатичен, — но мне претят всякие знакомства. Надеюсь на этой неделе написать тебе более путно.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Целую.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Целую.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;&lt;/del&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-added&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Поцелуй Алёшу. Ему я тоже должен письмо.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Поцелуй Алёшу. Ему я тоже должен письмо.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot; id=&quot;mw-diff-left-l29&quot;&gt;Line 29:&lt;/td&gt;
&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-lineno&quot;&gt;Line 28:&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Колино письмо вчера получил и опять покрыл его поцелуями.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Колино письмо вчера получил и опять покрыл его поцелуями.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Petersburg]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;19 March}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;[[Modya]]! There&amp;#039;s no possibility whatsoever of my conducting a proper correspondence from here. The more it goes on, the worse everything becomes. I&amp;#039;m being pulled to pieces, and soon there will only be shreds left. I feel horrible. To top it off, I have to fix the piano reduction of &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[The Maid]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;, which has been presented to the Directorate by [[Jurgenson]] in such a disgraceful state that I need to correct every bar. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;The letters from you and [[Nikolay Konradi|Kolya]] are a joy for me. I&amp;#039;m delighted to imagine you in Italy — sweet Italy. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Yesterday I had dinner at [[Konradi]]&amp;#039;s. [[Alina Bryullova|Alina]] was much more cheerful; [[Herman Karlovich]] was very nice to me, like never before. She now speaks highly of him, and tells how he&amp;#039;s become affectionate, kind and attentive to her. He agrees with me that it would be exhausting for you to go to the Caucasus, and suggests that you go straight to [[Grankino]]. I think this is best, but do come to [[Kamenka]] for at least a week, otherwise I&amp;#039;ll miss you.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I&amp;#039;m making great sacrifices for the sake of the opera. It&amp;#039;s reached the point where, on [[Nápravník]]&amp;#039;s advice, I&amp;#039;m {{und2|making visits}}!!! At his insistence, on Friday I have to visit the [[Grand Duke Konstantin Nikolayevich]]. On Tuesday there&amp;#039;s to be a concert here organised by Isakov, consisting exclusively of my works, in which [[Panayeva]] and the orchestra of the Russian Opera are taking part. Yesterday I was invited to the Quartet Society, where [[Auer]] and [[Karl Davydov|Davydov]] played my [[String Quartet No. 2|2nd Quartet]], and I was giving a standing ovation and presented with a wreath. This is all very flattering — but, God, how tired I am, how horrible I find everything here, and how I imagine leaving [[Petersburg]] as some sort of unattainable happiness! It&amp;#039;s madness how little I appreciated the immeasurable bliss of being free abroad! From morning here until the depths of the night, I &amp;#039;&amp;#039;must&amp;#039;&amp;#039; go somewhere and see &amp;#039;&amp;#039;someone&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. This is tyranny of the most sickening nature. [[Vera Butakova]] is a fine one! No matter how much I begged her to spare me from the evening with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Konstantin Konstantinovich]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, she wouldn&amp;#039;t budge. And today I have to be at here &amp;#039;&amp;#039;exposition&amp;#039;&amp;#039; before the Grand Duke. Let us say he&amp;#039;s very sympathetic — but I can&amp;#039;t bear any acquaintances. I hope to write you more pithily this week.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Kisses.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{right|P. Tchaikovsky}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Give a kiss to [[Alyosha]]. I also owe him a letter.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I bought boots and shirts for Vanya, and ordered him trousers. He is well.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I received a letter from [[Nikolay Konradi|Kolya]] again yesterday, and smothered it with kisses again.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<title>Brett at 19:34, 9 April 2020</title>
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|Date=19/31 March 1880&lt;br /&gt;
|To=[[Modest Tchaikovsky]]&lt;br /&gt;
|Place=[[Saint Petersburg]]&lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian&lt;br /&gt;
|Autograph=[[Klin]] (Russia): {{RUS-KLč}} (a{{sup|3}}, No. 1586)&lt;br /&gt;
|Publication={{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 247 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1965/80|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том IX}} (1965), p. 86–87&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81|Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 240 (English translation; abridged)&lt;br /&gt;
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|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Петербург&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;19 марта}}&lt;br /&gt;
Модя! Мне нет никакой возможности вести отсюда правильную переписку. Чем дальше, тем все делается хуже. Меня раздирают, и скоро останутся одни клочки. Чувствую себя отвратительно. В довершение всего, мне приходится теперь поправлять клавираусцуг «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Девы&amp;#039;&amp;#039;», представленный в Дирекцию Юргенсоном в таком безобразном виде, что приходится каждый такт исправлять.&lt;br /&gt;
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Твои и Колины письма составляют для меня отраду; мне приятно воображать вас в Италии, в милой Италии.&lt;br /&gt;
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Вчера я обедал у Конради. Алина очень повеселела; Герман Карл[ович] очень мил со мной, как никогда прежде. Она про него отзывается теперь очень хорошо и рассказывает, как он стал к ней ласков, добр и Внимателен. Он согласился со мной, что Вам было бы утомительно ехать на Кавказ, и предлагает тебе прямо направиться в Гранкино. Я думаю, что это лучше всего, но приезжай хоть на недельку в Каменку, а то я соскучусь.&lt;br /&gt;
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Я приношу ради оперы большие жертвы. Дошло до того, что по совету Направника я {{und2|делаю визиты}}!!! По его же настоянию в пятницу я должен быть у в[еликого] кн[язя] Конст[антина] Никол[аевича]. Здесь во вторник состоится концерт, устроенный Исаковым с участием Панаевой и оркестра русской оперы, составленный исключительно из моих сочинений. Вчера я был приглашён в Квартетное общество, где играли Ауэр и Давыдов мой 2-й кварт[ет], и мне была сделана овация с поднесением венка. Это очень лестно, — но, боже, до чего я устал, до чего мне здесь все противно, и как я воображаю об выезде из Петербурга как об каком-то невозможном счастии! Безумец, как я мало ценил за границей всю неизмеримость блаженства быть свободным! С утра до глубокой ночи я здесь все куда-то &amp;#039;&amp;#039;должен&amp;#039;&amp;#039; идти и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;кого-то&amp;#039;&amp;#039; Видеть. Тирания самого омерзительного свойства. Хороша Вера Бутакова! Как я ни умолял её избавить меня от вечера с &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Конст[антином] Конст[антиновичем]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, — не согласилась. И сегодня я должен быть у ней на &amp;#039;&amp;#039;экспозиции&amp;#039;&amp;#039; перед велик[им] кн[язем]. Положим, он очень симпатичен, — но мне претят всякие знакомства. Надеюсь на этой неделе написать тебе более путно.&lt;br /&gt;
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Целую.&lt;br /&gt;
{{right|П. Чайковский}}&lt;br /&gt;
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Поцелуй Алёшу. Ему я тоже должен письмо.&lt;br /&gt;
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Ване я купил сапоги и рубашки и заказал платье. Он здоров.&lt;br /&gt;
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Колино письмо вчера получил и опять покрыл его поцелуями.&lt;br /&gt;
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