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		<title>Brett at 20:10, 18 February 2024</title>
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Cologne]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;30 January/11 February 1889}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Cologne]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;30 January/11 February 1889}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;30 January! This is terrible! Two more months!!!  From morning to evening my only thought is about how time could pass more quickly and how I can survive until 8th April (new style). I&amp;#039;m terribly homesick, to the point of despair and madness. Perhaps it will pass. I spent three days in [[Berlin]]. This is my second day here. The first rehearsal was today; it went very well; the orchestra is excellent, and the three hours I spent there were very pleasant, except for the initial agitation and embarrassment. But as soon as I came home, the same homesickness and the same persistent desire to fly to 8 April started up. Were it not for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]], I surely wouldn&amp;#039;t have made it this far, and I would have been home ten days after the [[Berlin]] concert. But the thought of [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]] stops me. If I were rich, then I&amp;#039;d write it off. But anyway, I repeat, perhaps all this will pass. The concert is tomorrow, the day after I&amp;#039;m going to [[Frankfurt]], two days after that to [[Dresden]], from [[Dresden]] for 2 days in [[&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Lepzig&lt;/del&gt;]] to meet [[Brodsky]], then to [[Berlin]] and [[Hamburg]]. Then I&amp;#039;ll have 8 days of rest; I&amp;#039;m very much counting on them, and thinking of staying near &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Geneva]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039; and working. Then it&amp;#039;s [[Paris]], where I&amp;#039;ll eagerly wait for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]].&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;30 January! This is terrible! Two more months!!!  From morning to evening my only thought is about how time could pass more quickly and how I can survive until 8th April (new style). I&amp;#039;m terribly homesick, to the point of despair and madness. Perhaps it will pass. I spent three days in [[Berlin]]. This is my second day here. The first rehearsal was today; it went very well; the orchestra is excellent, and the three hours I spent there were very pleasant, except for the initial agitation and embarrassment. But as soon as I came home, the same homesickness and the same persistent desire to fly to 8 April started up. Were it not for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]], I surely wouldn&amp;#039;t have made it this far, and I would have been home ten days after the [[Berlin]] concert. But the thought of [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]] stops me. If I were rich, then I&amp;#039;d write it off. But anyway, I repeat, perhaps all this will pass. The concert is tomorrow, the day after I&amp;#039;m going to [[Frankfurt]], two days after that to [[Dresden]], from [[Dresden]] for 2 days in [[&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;Leipzig&lt;/ins&gt;]] to meet [[Brodsky]], then to [[Berlin]] and [[Hamburg]]. Then I&amp;#039;ll have 8 days of rest; I&amp;#039;m very much counting on them, and thinking of staying near &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Geneva]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039; and working. Then it&amp;#039;s [[Paris]], where I&amp;#039;ll eagerly wait for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]].&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I kiss you, golubchik [[Modya]]! Last night I had a dream about [[Bob]], in unusually poetic circumstances, and I&amp;#039;ve been remembering him continually today. I kiss [[Nikolay Konradi|Kolichik]] tenderly.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;I kiss you, golubchik [[Modya]]! Last night I had a dream about [[Bob]], in unusually poetic circumstances, and I&amp;#039;ve been remembering him continually today. I kiss [[Nikolay Konradi|Kolichik]] tenderly.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
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		<title>Brett at 09:31, 11 February 2024</title>
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Кёльн&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;30 января/11 февр[аля 18]89}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Кёльн&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;30 января/11 февр[аля 18]89}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;30 января! Это ужасно! Ещё два месяца!!! С утра до вечера я только и думаю о том, как бы скорее прошло время и как бы дожить до 8-го апр[еля] по новому стилю! Скучаю ужасно, до отчаяния и безумия. Может быть, потом обойдётся. В Берлине провёл трое суток. Здесь нахожусь уже второй день. Сегодня была первая репетиция. На репетиции шло очень хорошо; оркестр превосходнейший, и три часа, проведённые там, были очень приятны, за исключением первого волнения и конфуза. Но как только я пришёл домой, началась та же тоска и то же упорное стремление перелететь на 8 апреля. Если б не Вася, то я бы наверное не дотянул бы до тех пор и уехал бы через дней десять после берлинского концерта домой. Но мысль о Васе удерживает меня. Будь я богат, я бы выписал его. А, впрочем, повторяю, может быть, все это пройдёт. Завтра концерт, послезавтра еду в Франкфурт, через два дня потом в Дрезден, из Дрездена на 2 дня в Лейпциг для свидания с Бродским, потом Берлин, Гамбург. Потом будет дней 8 отдыха; я на них очень рассчитываю и думаю жить около &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Женевы&amp;#039;&amp;#039; и работать. Потом Париж, где буду ждать с восторгом Васю!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;30 января! Это ужасно! Ещё два месяца!!! С утра до вечера я только и думаю о том, как бы скорее прошло время и как бы дожить до 8-го апр[еля] по новому стилю! Скучаю ужасно, до отчаяния и безумия. Может быть, потом обойдётся. В Берлине провёл трое суток. Здесь нахожусь уже второй день. Сегодня была первая репетиция. На репетиции шло очень хорошо; оркестр превосходнейший, и три часа, проведённые там, были очень приятны, за исключением первого волнения и конфуза. Но как только я пришёл домой, началась та же тоска и то же упорное стремление перелететь на 8 апреля. Если б не Вася, то я бы наверное не дотянул бы до тех пор и уехал бы через дней десять после берлинского концерта домой. Но мысль о Васе удерживает меня. Будь я богат, я бы выписал его. А, впрочем, повторяю, может быть, все это пройдёт. Завтра концерт, послезавтра еду в Франкфурт, через два дня потом в Дрезден, из Дрездена на 2 дня в Лейпциг для свидания с Бродским, потом Берлин, Гамбург. Потом будет дней 8 отдыха; я на них очень рассчитываю и думаю жить около &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Женевы&amp;#039;&amp;#039; и работать. Потом Париж, где буду ждать с восторгом Васю!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;30 January! This is terrible! Two more months!!!  From morning to evening my only thought is about how time could pass more quickly and how I can survive until 8th April (new style). I&amp;#039;m terribly homesick, to the point of despair and madness. Perhaps it will pass. I spent three days in [[Berlin]]. This is my second day here. The first rehearsal was today; it went very well; the orchestra is excellent, and the three hours I spent there were very pleasant, except for the initial agitation and embarrassment. But as soon as I came home, the same homesickness and the same persistent desire to fly to 8 April started up. Were it not for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]], I surely wouldn&amp;#039;t have made it this far, and I would have been home ten days after the [[Berlin]] concert. But the thought of [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]] stops me. If I were rich, then I&amp;#039;d write it off. But anyway, I repeat, perhaps all this will pass. The concert is tomorrow, the day after I&amp;#039;m going to [[Frankfurt]], two days after that to [[Dresden]], from [[Dresden]] for 2 days in [[Lepzig]] to meet [[Brodsky]], then to [[Berlin]] and [[Hamburg]]. Then I&amp;#039;ll have 8 days of rest; I&amp;#039;m very much counting on them, and thinking of staying near &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Geneva]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039; and working. Then it&amp;#039;s [[Paris]], where I&amp;#039;ll eagerly wait for [[Vasily Sapelnikov|Vasya]].&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;I kiss you, golubchik [[Modya]]! Last night I had a dream about [[Bob]], in unusually poetic circumstances, and I&amp;#039;ve been remembering him continually today. I kiss [[Nikolay Konradi|Kolichik]] tenderly.&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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|Date=30 January/11 February 1889&lt;br /&gt;
|To=[[Modest Tchaikovsky]]&lt;br /&gt;
|Place=[[Cologne]]&lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian&lt;br /&gt;
|Autograph=[[Klin]] (Russia): {{RUS-KLč}} (a{{sup|3}}, No. 1901)&lt;br /&gt;
|Publication={{bib|1902/25|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 3}} (1902), p. 291 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 413&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1976/64|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том XV–А}} (1976), p. 37–38&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81|Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 414 (English translation)&lt;br /&gt;
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|Original text={{right|&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Кёльн&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;30 января/11 февр[аля 18]89}}&lt;br /&gt;
30 января! Это ужасно! Ещё два месяца!!! С утра до вечера я только и думаю о том, как бы скорее прошло время и как бы дожить до 8-го апр[еля] по новому стилю! Скучаю ужасно, до отчаяния и безумия. Может быть, потом обойдётся. В Берлине провёл трое суток. Здесь нахожусь уже второй день. Сегодня была первая репетиция. На репетиции шло очень хорошо; оркестр превосходнейший, и три часа, проведённые там, были очень приятны, за исключением первого волнения и конфуза. Но как только я пришёл домой, началась та же тоска и то же упорное стремление перелететь на 8 апреля. Если б не Вася, то я бы наверное не дотянул бы до тех пор и уехал бы через дней десять после берлинского концерта домой. Но мысль о Васе удерживает меня. Будь я богат, я бы выписал его. А, впрочем, повторяю, может быть, все это пройдёт. Завтра концерт, послезавтра еду в Франкфурт, через два дня потом в Дрезден, из Дрездена на 2 дня в Лейпциг для свидания с Бродским, потом Берлин, Гамбург. Потом будет дней 8 отдыха; я на них очень рассчитываю и думаю жить около &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Женевы&amp;#039;&amp;#039; и работать. Потом Париж, где буду ждать с восторгом Васю!&lt;br /&gt;
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Целую тебя, голубчик Модя! Сегодня всю ночь видел во сне Боба, при необычайно поэтической обстановке, и беспрестанно его сегодня вспоминаю. Количку нежно целую.&lt;br /&gt;
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