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		<title>Brett at 11:46, 18 January 2025</title>
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|6th &amp;#039;&amp;#039;January&amp;#039;&amp;#039; 1875}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|6th &amp;#039;&amp;#039;January&amp;#039;&amp;#039; 1875}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Dear [[Modya]]!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Dear [[Modya]]!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;There is no way that I can fulfil your request regarding &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;The Demon&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;. I hardly know it, and what I do know, I don&amp;#039;t like at all. I advise you to approach [[Malozemova]]; she, of course, is favourably disposed towards &amp;quot;The Demon&amp;quot; for reasons of personal affection, but wouldn&amp;#039;t you agree that [[Anton Rubinstein]] ought to be praised at all costs out of &amp;#039;&amp;#039;principle&amp;#039;&amp;#039;? It would be best if you were to write a short article in which you outline the content of the opera, and the most outstanding passages. It&amp;#039;s awkward for you to go into technical details, since everyone probably knows that &amp;#039;&amp;#039;you&amp;#039;&amp;#039; are the writer. They will say: here he is, poking his nose in to criticise something he doesn&amp;#039;t know much about; they&amp;#039;ll say that since his brother is a musician, he imagines he can talk about music, and so on. I&amp;#039;m very pleased with your article about the [[Kiev]] Opera. You complain that it&amp;#039;s difficult to you to write and you have to brood over every phrase. But do you really think that anything can be achieved without labour and effort? I sometimes sit for a couple of hours, gnawing on my pen and not knowing where to start an article; I don&amp;#039;t think it will be good enough — but you see others revelling in it, even finding the process of writing to be effortless and easy labour. Remember how I used to struggle through those exercises for [[Zaremba]]? Remember how much upset my nerves were in &amp;#039;66 at Myatlev&amp;#039;s dacha because I was fretting over a symphony that &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;would &lt;/del&gt;come out — and there you have it. Even now, with some things I have to bite my nails, smoke an enormous quantity of cigarettes, pace around the room — before I can even &amp;#039;&amp;#039;&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;come up with&lt;/del&gt;&amp;#039;&amp;#039; the main motif. Sometimes, on the contrary, writing is awfully easy; ideas even swarm and chase each other around. It all depends on a certain mood and frame of mind. Even when these are not present, you need to be able to force yourself to work. Otherwise nothing will ever come out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;There is no way that I can fulfil your request regarding &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;The Demon&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;. I hardly know it, and what I do know, I don&amp;#039;t like at all. I advise you to approach [[Malozemova]]; she, of course, is favourably disposed towards &amp;quot;The Demon&amp;quot; for reasons of personal affection, but wouldn&amp;#039;t you agree that [[Anton Rubinstein]] ought to be praised at all costs out of &amp;#039;&amp;#039;principle&amp;#039;&amp;#039;? It would be best if you were to write a short article in which you outline the content of the opera, and the most outstanding passages. It&amp;#039;s awkward for you to go into technical details, since everyone probably knows that &amp;#039;&amp;#039;you&amp;#039;&amp;#039; are the writer. They will say: here he is, poking his nose in to criticise something he doesn&amp;#039;t know much about; they&amp;#039;ll say that since his brother is a musician, he imagines he can talk about music, and so on. I&amp;#039;m very pleased with your article about the [[Kiev]] Opera. You complain that it&amp;#039;s difficult to you to write and you have to brood over every phrase. But do you really think that anything can be achieved without labour and effort? I sometimes sit for a couple of hours, gnawing on my pen and not knowing where to start an article; I don&amp;#039;t think it will be good enough — but you see others revelling in it, even finding the process of writing to be effortless and easy labour. Remember how I used to struggle through those exercises for [[Zaremba]]? Remember how much upset my nerves were in &amp;#039;66 at Myatlev&amp;#039;s dacha because I was fretting over a symphony that &lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;wouldn&amp;#039;t &lt;/ins&gt;come out — and there you have it. Even now, with some things I have to bite my nails, smoke an enormous quantity of cigarettes, pace around the room — before I can even &amp;#039;&amp;#039;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;conceive&lt;/ins&gt;&amp;#039;&amp;#039; the main motif. Sometimes, on the contrary, writing is awfully easy; ideas even swarm and chase each other around. It all depends on a certain mood and frame of mind. Even when these are not present, you need to be able to force yourself to work. Otherwise nothing will ever come out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;You write that you&amp;#039;re finding yourself in a bad mood. Believe me, mine isn&amp;#039;t any better. It&amp;#039;s all damned nerves. What you write to me about the [[Laroche]]s affected me awfully deeply. I vividly felt what they must have experienced when parting from their children. Indeed, it&amp;#039;s an awful shame for the &amp;#039;&amp;#039;girl&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Write to me with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Laroche]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;{{&amp;#039;}}s address; I want to write to him. Kiss [[Papasha]]&amp;#039;s hand for his lovely letter; kiss our dear old man all over and tell him that I love him so much. I don&amp;#039;t know [[Tolya]] any more. As for Sukhanov, I can assure you that he is a very good fellow, but I know from experience how hard it is to be dependent upon anyone. I won&amp;#039;t dare give advice, nor advise against it.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;You write that you&amp;#039;re finding yourself in a bad mood. Believe me, mine isn&amp;#039;t any better. It&amp;#039;s all damned nerves. What you write to me about the [[Laroche]]s affected me awfully deeply. I vividly felt what they must have experienced when parting from their children. Indeed, it&amp;#039;s an awful shame for the &amp;#039;&amp;#039;girl&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Write to me with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Laroche]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;{{&amp;#039;}}s address; I want to write to him. Kiss [[Papasha]]&amp;#039;s hand for his lovely letter; kiss our dear old man all over and tell him that I love him so much. I don&amp;#039;t know [[Tolya]] any more. As for Sukhanov, I can assure you that he is a very good fellow, but I know from experience how hard it is to be dependent upon anyone. I won&amp;#039;t dare give advice, nor advise against it.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Brett</name></author>
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		<title>Tony: Omitted &quot;have to&quot; to avoid repetition</title>
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		<updated>2024-03-09T13:26:57Z</updated>

		<summary type="html">&lt;p&gt;Omitted &amp;quot;have to&amp;quot; to avoid repetition&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|6th &amp;#039;&amp;#039;January&amp;#039;&amp;#039; 1875}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text={{right|6th &amp;#039;&amp;#039;January&amp;#039;&amp;#039; 1875}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Dear [[Modya]]!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;{{centre|Dear [[Modya]]!}}&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;There is no way that I can fulfil your request regarding &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;The Demon&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;. I hardly know it, and what I do know, I don&amp;#039;t like at all. I advise you to approach [[Malozemova]]; she, of course, is favourably disposed towards &amp;quot;The Demon&amp;quot; for reasons of personal affection, but wouldn&amp;#039;t you agree that [[Anton Rubinstein]] ought to be praised at all costs out of &amp;#039;&amp;#039;principle&amp;#039;&amp;#039;? It would be best if you were to write a short article in which you outline the content of the opera, and the most outstanding passages. It&amp;#039;s awkward for you to go into technical details, since everyone probably knows that &amp;#039;&amp;#039;you&amp;#039;&amp;#039; are the writer. They will say: here he is, poking his nose in to criticise something he doesn&amp;#039;t know much about; they&amp;#039;ll say that since his brother is a musician, he imagines he can talk about music, and so on. I&amp;#039;m very pleased with your article about the [[Kiev]] Opera. You complain that it&amp;#039;s difficult to you to write and you &lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;have to &lt;/del&gt;have to brood over every phrase. But do you really think that anything can be achieved without labour and effort? I sometimes sit for a couple of hours, gnawing on my pen and not knowing where to start an article; I don&amp;#039;t think it will be good enough — but you see others revelling in it, even finding the process of writing to be effortless and easy labour. Remember how I used to struggle through those exercises for [[Zaremba]]? Remember how much upset my nerves were in &amp;#039;66 at Myatlev&amp;#039;s dacha because I was fretting over a symphony that would come out — and there you have it. Even now, with some things I have to bite my nails, smoke an enormous quantity of cigarettes, pace around the room — before I can even &amp;#039;&amp;#039;come up with&amp;#039;&amp;#039; the main motif. Sometimes, on the contrary, writing is awfully easy; ideas even swarm and chase each other around. It all depends on a certain mood and frame of mind. Even when these are not present, you need to be able to force yourself to work. Otherwise nothing will ever come out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;There is no way that I can fulfil your request regarding &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;The Demon&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;. I hardly know it, and what I do know, I don&amp;#039;t like at all. I advise you to approach [[Malozemova]]; she, of course, is favourably disposed towards &amp;quot;The Demon&amp;quot; for reasons of personal affection, but wouldn&amp;#039;t you agree that [[Anton Rubinstein]] ought to be praised at all costs out of &amp;#039;&amp;#039;principle&amp;#039;&amp;#039;? It would be best if you were to write a short article in which you outline the content of the opera, and the most outstanding passages. It&amp;#039;s awkward for you to go into technical details, since everyone probably knows that &amp;#039;&amp;#039;you&amp;#039;&amp;#039; are the writer. They will say: here he is, poking his nose in to criticise something he doesn&amp;#039;t know much about; they&amp;#039;ll say that since his brother is a musician, he imagines he can talk about music, and so on. I&amp;#039;m very pleased with your article about the [[Kiev]] Opera. You complain that it&amp;#039;s difficult to you to write and you have to brood over every phrase. But do you really think that anything can be achieved without labour and effort? I sometimes sit for a couple of hours, gnawing on my pen and not knowing where to start an article; I don&amp;#039;t think it will be good enough — but you see others revelling in it, even finding the process of writing to be effortless and easy labour. Remember how I used to struggle through those exercises for [[Zaremba]]? Remember how much upset my nerves were in &amp;#039;66 at Myatlev&amp;#039;s dacha because I was fretting over a symphony that would come out — and there you have it. Even now, with some things I have to bite my nails, smoke an enormous quantity of cigarettes, pace around the room — before I can even &amp;#039;&amp;#039;come up with&amp;#039;&amp;#039; the main motif. Sometimes, on the contrary, writing is awfully easy; ideas even swarm and chase each other around. It all depends on a certain mood and frame of mind. Even when these are not present, you need to be able to force yourself to work. Otherwise nothing will ever come out.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;You write that you&amp;#039;re finding yourself in a bad mood. Believe me, mine isn&amp;#039;t any better. It&amp;#039;s all damned nerves. What you write to me about the [[Laroche]]s affected me awfully deeply. I vividly felt what they must have experienced when parting from their children. Indeed, it&amp;#039;s an awful shame for the &amp;#039;&amp;#039;girl&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Write to me with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Laroche]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;{{&amp;#039;}}s address; I want to write to him. Kiss [[Papasha]]&amp;#039;s hand for his lovely letter; kiss our dear old man all over and tell him that I love him so much. I don&amp;#039;t know [[Tolya]] any more. As for Sukhanov, I can assure you that he is a very good fellow, but I know from experience how hard it is to be dependent upon anyone. I won&amp;#039;t dare give advice, nor advise against it.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;You write that you&amp;#039;re finding yourself in a bad mood. Believe me, mine isn&amp;#039;t any better. It&amp;#039;s all damned nerves. What you write to me about the [[Laroche]]s affected me awfully deeply. I vividly felt what they must have experienced when parting from their children. Indeed, it&amp;#039;s an awful shame for the &amp;#039;&amp;#039;girl&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Write to me with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Laroche]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;{{&amp;#039;}}s address; I want to write to him. Kiss [[Papasha]]&amp;#039;s hand for his lovely letter; kiss our dear old man all over and tell him that I love him so much. I don&amp;#039;t know [[Tolya]] any more. As for Sukhanov, I can assure you that he is a very good fellow, but I know from experience how hard it is to be dependent upon anyone. I won&amp;#039;t dare give advice, nor advise against it.  &lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<author><name>Tony</name></author>
	</entry>
	<entry>
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		<title>Brett at 15:14, 18 January 2024</title>
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		<updated>2024-01-18T15:14:27Z</updated>

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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Никоим образам не могу удовлетворить твою просьбу насчёт «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Демона&amp;#039;&amp;#039;». Я его почти не знаю, а то, что знаю, мне совсем не нравится. Советую тебе обратиться к Малоземовой; она, конечно, настроена ради личной приязни слишком благоприятно в пользу «Демона», но ведь согласись, что Антона Рубинштейна следует хвалить во что бы то ни стало из &amp;#039;&amp;#039;принципа&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Всего лучше, если ты напишешь коротенькую статейку, в которой изложишь содержание оперы и назовёшь наиболее выдающиеся места. Вдаваться в технические подробности тебе неловко, так как, вероятно, все уже знают, что пишешь &amp;#039;&amp;#039;ты&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Скажут: вот суётся критиковать дела, которого хорошо не знает; воображает, дескать, что так как у него брат музыкант, так&lt;del style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;. &lt;/del&gt;ему можно рассуждать а музыке и т. п. Твоей статьёй об киевской опере я очень доволен. Ты жалуешься, что тебе трудно писать и что каждую фразу приходится высиживать. Но неужели ты думаешь, что без труда и усилия что-нибудь даётся? Я иногда по два часа сижу, грызя перо и не зная, с чего начать фельетон; думаю, что никуда не годно выйдет, — он, смотришь, другие хвалят и даже находят лёгкую работу и следы непринуждённости в процессе писания. Вспомни, как я когда-то с трудом высиживал задачи для Зарембы! Вспомни, до чего я расстроил себе нервы в 66-м году на даче Мятлева оттого, что коптел над симфонией, которая не давалась, — да и только. Даже и теперь иные вещи требуют кусания ногтей, выкуривания громадного количества папирос, прохаживания себя по комнате, — прежде чем дойдёшь да &amp;#039;&amp;#039;изобретения&amp;#039;&amp;#039; основного мотива. Иногда, напротив, пишется ужасно легко; мысли так и копошатся и гонят одна другую. Все зависит от известной настроенности и расположения духа. На даже и когда их нет, нужно уметь заставить себя работать. Иначе никогда ничего не выйдет.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Никоим образам не могу удовлетворить твою просьбу насчёт «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Демона&amp;#039;&amp;#039;». Я его почти не знаю, а то, что знаю, мне совсем не нравится. Советую тебе обратиться к Малоземовой; она, конечно, настроена ради личной приязни слишком благоприятно в пользу «Демона», но ведь согласись, что Антона Рубинштейна следует хвалить во что бы то ни стало из &amp;#039;&amp;#039;принципа&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Всего лучше, если ты напишешь коротенькую статейку, в которой изложишь содержание оперы и назовёшь наиболее выдающиеся места. Вдаваться в технические подробности тебе неловко, так как, вероятно, все уже знают, что пишешь &amp;#039;&amp;#039;ты&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Скажут: вот суётся критиковать дела, которого хорошо не знает; воображает, дескать, что так как у него брат музыкант, так ему можно рассуждать а музыке и т. п. Твоей статьёй об киевской опере я очень доволен. Ты жалуешься, что тебе трудно писать и что каждую фразу приходится высиживать. Но неужели ты думаешь, что без труда и усилия что-нибудь даётся? Я иногда по два часа сижу, грызя перо и не зная, с чего начать фельетон; думаю, что никуда не годно выйдет, — он, смотришь, другие хвалят и даже находят лёгкую работу и следы непринуждённости в процессе писания. Вспомни, как я когда-то с трудом высиживал задачи для Зарембы! Вспомни, до чего я расстроил себе нервы в 66-м году на даче Мятлева оттого, что коптел над симфонией, которая не давалась, — да и только. Даже и теперь иные вещи требуют кусания ногтей, выкуривания громадного количества папирос, прохаживания себя по комнате, — прежде чем дойдёшь да &amp;#039;&amp;#039;изобретения&amp;#039;&amp;#039; основного мотива. Иногда, напротив, пишется ужасно легко; мысли так и копошатся и гонят одна другую. Все зависит от известной настроенности и расположения духа. На даже и когда их нет, нужно уметь заставить себя работать. Иначе никогда ничего не выйдет.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Ты пишешь, что находишься в дурном расположение духа. Поверь, что оно нисколько не лучше моего. Это все проклятые нервы. То, что ты мне пишешь о Ларошах, меня ужасно затронуло за живое место. Я живо почувствовал, что они должны были испытать, расставаясь с детьми. Да и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;девочку&amp;#039;&amp;#039; ужасно жаль. Напиши мне адрес &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Лароша&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, я хочу ему написать. Поцелуй у Папаши ручку за его прелестное письма; расцелуй милого нашего старичка во все места и скажи ему, что я его страсть как люблю. С Толей я больше не знаком. Насчёт Суханова могу тебя удостоверить, что это человек очень хороший, но я по опыту знаю, как тяжело ездить в зависимости от кого бы то ни было. Не смею ни советовать; ни отсоветовать.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;Ты пишешь, что находишься в дурном расположение духа. Поверь, что оно нисколько не лучше моего. Это все проклятые нервы. То, что ты мне пишешь о Ларошах, меня ужасно затронуло за живое место. Я живо почувствовал, что они должны были испытать, расставаясь с детьми. Да и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;девочку&amp;#039;&amp;#039; ужасно жаль. Напиши мне адрес &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Лароша&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, я хочу ему написать. Поцелуй у Папаши ручку за его прелестное письма; расцелуй милого нашего старичка во все места и скажи ему, что я его страсть как люблю. С Толей я больше не знаком. Насчёт Суханова могу тебя удостоверить, что это человек очень хороший, но я по опыту знаю, как тяжело ездить в зависимости от кого бы то ни было. Не смею ни советовать; ни отсоветовать.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;−&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;|Translated text=&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;{{right|6th &amp;#039;&amp;#039;January&amp;#039;&amp;#039; 1875}}&lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;There is no way that I can fulfil your request regarding &amp;quot;&amp;#039;&amp;#039;The Demon&amp;#039;&amp;#039;&amp;quot;. I hardly know it, and what I do know, I don&amp;#039;t like at all. I advise you to approach [[Malozemova]]; she, of course, is favourably disposed towards &amp;quot;The Demon&amp;quot; for reasons of personal affection, but wouldn&amp;#039;t you agree that [[Anton Rubinstein]] ought to be praised at all costs out of &amp;#039;&amp;#039;principle&amp;#039;&amp;#039;? It would be best if you were to write a short article in which you outline the content of the opera, and the most outstanding passages. It&amp;#039;s awkward for you to go into technical details, since everyone probably knows that &amp;#039;&amp;#039;you&amp;#039;&amp;#039; are the writer. They will say: here he is, poking his nose in to criticise something he doesn&amp;#039;t know much about; they&amp;#039;ll say that since his brother is a musician, he imagines he can talk about music, and so on. I&amp;#039;m very pleased with your article about the [[Kiev]] Opera. You complain that it&amp;#039;s difficult to you to write and you have to have to brood over every phrase. But do you really think that anything can be achieved without labour and effort? I sometimes sit for a couple of hours, gnawing on my pen and not knowing where to start an article; I don&amp;#039;t think it will be good enough — but you see others revelling in it, even finding the process of writing to be effortless and easy labour. Remember how I used to struggle through those exercises for [[Zaremba]]? Remember how much upset my nerves were in &amp;#039;66 at Myatlev&amp;#039;s dacha because I was fretting over a symphony that would come out — and there you have it. Even now, with some things I have to bite my nails, smoke an enormous quantity of cigarettes, pace around the room — before I can even &amp;#039;&amp;#039;come up with&amp;#039;&amp;#039; the main motif. Sometimes, on the contrary, writing is awfully easy; ideas even swarm and chase each other around. It all depends on a certain mood and frame of mind. Even when these are not present, you need to be able to force yourself to work. Otherwise nothing will ever come out. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td colspan=&quot;2&quot; class=&quot;diff-side-deleted&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td class=&quot;diff-marker&quot; data-marker=&quot;+&quot;&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;td style=&quot;color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;&quot;&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;ins style=&quot;font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;&quot;&gt;You write that you&amp;#039;re finding yourself in a bad mood. Believe me, mine isn&amp;#039;t any better. It&amp;#039;s all damned nerves. What you write to me about the [[Laroche]]s affected me awfully deeply. I vividly felt what they must have experienced when parting from their children. Indeed, it&amp;#039;s an awful shame for the &amp;#039;&amp;#039;girl&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Write to me with &amp;#039;&amp;#039;[[Laroche]]&amp;#039;&amp;#039;{{&amp;#039;}}s address; I want to write to him. Kiss [[Papasha]]&amp;#039;s hand for his lovely letter; kiss our dear old man all over and tell him that I love him so much. I don&amp;#039;t know [[Tolya]] any more. As for Sukhanov, I can assure you that he is a very good fellow, but I know from experience how hard it is to be dependent upon anyone. I won&amp;#039;t dare give advice, nor advise against it. &lt;/ins&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;
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		<title>Brett at 09:40, 9 April 2020</title>
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|Date=6/18 January 1875 &lt;br /&gt;
|To=[[Modest Tchaikovsky]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Place=[[Moscow]] &lt;br /&gt;
|Language=Russian &lt;br /&gt;
|Autograph=[[Saint Petersburg]] (Russia): {{RUS-SPsc}} (ф. 834, ед. хр. 36, л. 68–69) &lt;br /&gt;
|Publication={{bib|1900/35|Жизнь Петра Ильича Чайковского ; том 1}} (1900), p. 454 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1940/210|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к родным ; том 1}} (1940), p. 212–213 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1955/37|П. И. Чайковский. Письма к близким}} (1955), p. 94 (abridged)&amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1959/50|П. И. Чайковский. Полное собрание сочинений ; том V}} (1959), p. 388–389 &amp;lt;br/&amp;gt;{{bib|1981/81| Piotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky. Letters to his family. An autobiography}} (1981), p. 92–93 (English translation; abridged)&lt;br /&gt;
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{{centre|Милый Модя!}}&lt;br /&gt;
Никоим образам не могу удовлетворить твою просьбу насчёт «&amp;#039;&amp;#039;Демона&amp;#039;&amp;#039;». Я его почти не знаю, а то, что знаю, мне совсем не нравится. Советую тебе обратиться к Малоземовой; она, конечно, настроена ради личной приязни слишком благоприятно в пользу «Демона», но ведь согласись, что Антона Рубинштейна следует хвалить во что бы то ни стало из &amp;#039;&amp;#039;принципа&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Всего лучше, если ты напишешь коротенькую статейку, в которой изложишь содержание оперы и назовёшь наиболее выдающиеся места. Вдаваться в технические подробности тебе неловко, так как, вероятно, все уже знают, что пишешь &amp;#039;&amp;#039;ты&amp;#039;&amp;#039;. Скажут: вот суётся критиковать дела, которого хорошо не знает; воображает, дескать, что так как у него брат музыкант, так. ему можно рассуждать а музыке и т. п. Твоей статьёй об киевской опере я очень доволен. Ты жалуешься, что тебе трудно писать и что каждую фразу приходится высиживать. Но неужели ты думаешь, что без труда и усилия что-нибудь даётся? Я иногда по два часа сижу, грызя перо и не зная, с чего начать фельетон; думаю, что никуда не годно выйдет, — он, смотришь, другие хвалят и даже находят лёгкую работу и следы непринуждённости в процессе писания. Вспомни, как я когда-то с трудом высиживал задачи для Зарембы! Вспомни, до чего я расстроил себе нервы в 66-м году на даче Мятлева оттого, что коптел над симфонией, которая не давалась, — да и только. Даже и теперь иные вещи требуют кусания ногтей, выкуривания громадного количества папирос, прохаживания себя по комнате, — прежде чем дойдёшь да &amp;#039;&amp;#039;изобретения&amp;#039;&amp;#039; основного мотива. Иногда, напротив, пишется ужасно легко; мысли так и копошатся и гонят одна другую. Все зависит от известной настроенности и расположения духа. На даже и когда их нет, нужно уметь заставить себя работать. Иначе никогда ничего не выйдет.&lt;br /&gt;
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Ты пишешь, что находишься в дурном расположение духа. Поверь, что оно нисколько не лучше моего. Это все проклятые нервы. То, что ты мне пишешь о Ларошах, меня ужасно затронуло за живое место. Я живо почувствовал, что они должны были испытать, расставаясь с детьми. Да и &amp;#039;&amp;#039;девочку&amp;#039;&amp;#039; ужасно жаль. Напиши мне адрес &amp;#039;&amp;#039;Лароша&amp;#039;&amp;#039;, я хочу ему написать. Поцелуй у Папаши ручку за его прелестное письма; расцелуй милого нашего старичка во все места и скажи ему, что я его страсть как люблю. С Толей я больше не знаком. Насчёт Суханова могу тебя удостоверить, что это человек очень хороший, но я по опыту знаю, как тяжело ездить в зависимости от кого бы то ни было. Не смею ни советовать; ни отсоветовать.&lt;br /&gt;
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